I walk into the bar, we drink vodka untill we feel sore. God I loved her with everything in my weak and broken self. She may have been my first true love. She made me understand chivilary.. I wanted to open door for her and fix her, and catch her when she fell. She's clean now, she says this stint in rehab was the last. Fuck..... I want to believe her. I rub the ring on my finger and also think about the fact that she was my best friend at a point in my life.

I look at her as that, she was a friend and she needs me to stay clean. I love him so much and only see him now. I just still want to fix her. I still want to catch her. I wish I knew why....