Alive. Back on the day shift, shifting my thinking, blasting Elvis while sitting in my office. I enjoyed the rain for the first time in a long time, too long, can't keep mourning. Sometimes you have to almost lose it all to appreciate it. Still want to leave the career, wanting to put together a portfolio, apply for film/radio in fall. Laugh more, stay home less, had a mario party untill 5 am this weekend w/ old friends. Carlos re-entering my life has been a nice surprise. I must resolve to drink more, laugh more, yell more and have ridiculous missions more.