She's dying. A clinet of mine. The A.I.D.S virus is attacking her quickly at this point. She asks me if I think dying will hurt. I hate my job right now, I'm mad at myself b/c I really like this one. We've been through a lot togther. I've seen her emotions and addictions get so much better as her body gets worse. Her 2 kids died a few years ago, she has a peace about death her religion gives her. The 12 step program ppl tend to lean towards God. So that gives her peace...
She's had a terrible life. But she still smiles evey fucking day. Even when ignorant ppl pull their children away from her b/c she is sick and they know why. Even when she feels crappy and can stop coughing, even when she shows me the articles from the paper from when her kids died, that she kept even when living in a squat w/ bikers.. this woman still smiles. She's dying and she just wants me to tell her it won't hurt, and I can't b/c it will..